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26th-Dec-2012 10:24 pm - I love my engineer father.
Me: (frowning) Hmm.

Dad: Something wrong?

Me: Well, I have a question, but I don't know how to ask it without making me sound really, really creepy.

Dad: Go ahead.

Me: How many human bodies would it take to fill a twelve-by-twelve pit to knee high?

Dad: (stares)

Dad: (pauses, thinking)

Dad: Well, if you assume the human body's eighteen inches wide, eight inches deep, six feet high... (pauses, ticks off a few fingers) I guess about twenty-five, twenty-six?

Me: Okay, yes, awesome, thank you!

Dad: I'm going to ask the pastor to pray for your soul next Sunday. Why couldn't you just want to be a druid with a blue candle or something?
loquaciousquark: ((dragon age) fenris is SUSPICIOUS)
Oh my goodness why is plotting so hard. Or rather, why am I so bad at it.

Why can't I just string ten introspective one-shots together and call that a narrative? I mean, they could be thematic and everything. I could totally pull a Sine Qua Non (and how's that for a blast from the past) and just stick in notes at the beginning of each chapter that do all the, you know, "narrative" and "plotty" and "important" bits, and then I could focus on writing the ten thousand words about how all the characters are feeling instead.

Dragon Age Big Bang, you are not being my friend. Making me plot and keep up with the plot and resolve the plot, when all I want to do is just wallow in layered metaphors about finding a purpose and moving from shadow into light and back again.

hnnnnngh writing. If I smash the pen against the paper hard enough, do I eventually get art? (also I actually wrote out stuff longhand for this fic. Broke out the notebook I haven't written in since Feb '10 and everything. This stupid challenge is destroying me and I still can't stop.) Current word count: 30k out of I think 65k-ish?


ALSO I am getting sick. I can feel it. I have dosed liberally with cough syrup but now I just feel sick and loopier than a crazy straw, which I expect also explains this post.
loquaciousquark: ((dragon age) fenris think hard)
So here is a post!

Okay, so I wrote that, then immediately got up to get another sloppy joe because I couldn't think of anything else to write. I don't remember being so bad at this!

Okay, here's a thing that's going on in my life: so some of you may remember that I'm in optometry school, and some of you may remember that last winter I failed Ocular Pharmacology, which meant that I had to repeat the course—and, since the course is only offered once a year, it meant I had to basically drop out for the spring and summer, get a job for that time, and then come back to join the class under me to retake the course.

WELL. I am DELIGHTED to say that it is going much, much better this year. Grades have been As and Bs and I'm even getting handwritten notes on the results pages (Good job this term! Keep it up!), which I figure can't be that bad. The instructor even told me that I seemed more engaged in lecture this year, which, considering I was so frustrated and embarrassed by my own difficulty in the course last year that I went out of my way to actively avoid the professor, I can totally see why she'd think that.

BUT it's going so much better now, and God willing I'll do as well on the last test and the final, and this time next year I'll be prepping for externship rotations rather than this class again, because if that happens I might seriously consider throwing myself off the ledge in front of my apartment. (It is about three feet high. In retrospect, this is not a particularly effective threat.)


This is a very cute story for people who like either proposals or Star Trek.


Goodness, what else is going on? Auburn football has been absolutely atrocious this year but nobody cares about that on my flist but me, I don't think. The dog has hit 65 pounds and seems to be leveling off there, and all 65 pounds of him are currently on my feet.

AH AH AH HERE IS A FUNNY THING THAT HAPPENED.

So, we had a test Monday which included a short-answer section, and one of the questions was "Explain how ortho K is beneficial for a young myope." And oh my goodness, I had no idea. I remembered the phrase popping up on the Alternative Treatment slide but we never went into it in any depth that I remembered, and I've never met an optometrist who has even suggested it as a possible treatment for myopia, so I couldn't even attempt the b.s. the question. So, in the spirit of total honesty, I wrote down in the black "not the foggiest idea," went on to answer the rest of the questions, and that was that.

The next day, in lab, I had a question for one of the professors who teaches the course. She's a very nice woman but very serious and very professional, and I've never really heard her joke around with students or even with the other professors save a few comments here and there. So I asked my question about the vergence testing we were doing that day and she looked at me, and she kind of shrugged one shoulder, and she said, "Well, Quark, I haven't the foggiest idea."

And then she winked at me.

Oh my goodness, I died laughing. She said it made her laugh as well when she was looking over the exams the previous night, and it was just such a great moment that I proceeded to tell all my friends it had happened too (to their own varying degrees of shock and laughter). It was also pretty cool to see her smile that broadly in a classroom setting.


Also, I am now on Dreamwidth? LoquaciousQuark over there too, as per usual. I'm planning on crossposting everything to LJ too though, so those of y'all here won't notice any difference.


Okay, one last thing that I should have mentioned ages ago and...utterly failed to: Jade is here! She moved in quite a number of days ago and I am just the worst at telling y'all things, but I can at least tell you that it's been great. I don't think Jade will be mad at me for confiding that I was a slight bit nervous about it, just because we haven't lived in the same city for like five years and I am not so good at the reliable social interactions when it jeopardizes my precious precious sleep times, but to my utter and unending relief it has been wonderful.

Like, I'd forgotten how nice it is to just sit down and talk with someone about anything and everything that comes into your head. My roommate I adore and love and treasure dearly, but she has no fandom background and she just doesn't understand the giddy joy of posting a fic and getting positive feedback like someone who's been there and done it themselves. I mean, the other day we sat at my kitchen table and discussed Dragon Age minutiae for like three hours. We're talking the nature of demons, Inquisition possibilities, everything about the Old Gods the wiki had to offer.

It's just fun, you know? I'd forgotten how much fun it could be.
loquaciousquark: ((misc) eyes! eyes everywhere!)
22nd-May-2012 12:33 pm
Hey! Sorry I haven't been around much lately--or rather, I've been around but I haven't been updating, but things have been so freaking busy here that I haven't had any time to do...well, anything lately. I've been working full-time at this new job (and it's been wonderful and I love it and I have a post half-finished about it) and then these past two weekends I've gone home to Huntsville (and they've been wonderful and I took Jasper last weekend and we went bridesmaid-dress-shopping for Jade and I need to make a post about it).

And then this morning I got in a wreck on the way to work (not so wonderful), so I have to go back to Huntsville for the third time in three weekends to exchange cars so I can get mine fixed. And of course, this is on top of a speeding ticket I got from the trip to Huntsville two weekends ago (infuriating), and I am just really, really, really sick of making that drive and paying for that gas right now.

And I guess to sandwich that suckiness in a bun of awesome, I am really enjoying Korra and I also blew through Mass Effects 1 and 2 from...April 26th - May 10th? And I need to make a post about that too, but in what little time I've had between work and bedtime I've been slowly working my way through the glut of FShep/Garrus on ff.net WHICH BY THE WAY, RECS WELCOME, but between that and the kmeme fill I'm trying to finish and these stupid car things and having to leave every weekend I'm just getting nothing done, and I am really, really looking forward to Memorial Day weekend if for nothing else but the ability it'll give me to close my bedroom door and talk to absolutely nobody for more than fifteen minutes.

Yeah. That'll be good.
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22nd-May-2012 12:33 pm
Hey! Sorry I haven't been around much lately--or rather, I've been around but I haven't been updating, but things have been so freaking busy here that I haven't had any time to do...well, anything lately. I've been working full-time at this new job (and it's been wonderful and I love it and I have a post half-finished about it) and then these past two weekends I've gone home to Huntsville (and they've been wonderful and I took Jasper last weekend and we went bridesmaid-dress-shopping for Jade and I need to make a post about it).

And then this morning I got in a wreck on the way to work (not so wonderful), so I have to go back to Huntsville for the third time in three weekends to exchange cars so I can get mine fixed. And of course, this is on top of a speeding ticket I got from the trip to Huntsville two weekends ago (infuriating), and I am just really, really, really sick of making that drive and paying for that gas right now.

And I guess to sandwich that suckiness in a bun of awesome, I am really enjoying Korra and I also blew through Mass Effects 1 and 2 from...April 26th - May 10th? And I need to make a post about that too, but in what little time I've had between work and bedtime I've been slowly working my way through the glut of FShep/Garrus on ff.net WHICH BY THE WAY, RECS WELCOME, but between that and the kmeme fill I'm trying to finish and these stupid car things and having to leave every weekend I'm just getting nothing done, and I am really, really looking forward to Memorial Day weekend if for nothing else but the ability it'll give me to close my bedroom door and talk to absolutely nobody for more than fifteen minutes.

Yeah. That'll be good.
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25th-Mar-2012 08:57 pm - oh gosh
Oh my goodness, oh my goodness, my roommate just googled "romance fan fiction" for the first time after a discussion of the kmeme fill I'm working on. WHAT HAVE I DONE WHAT HAVE I UNLEASHED

(I already asked Hikki this, but I wanted to get y'all's opinions too: what's the etiquette on posting fills concurrently with another A!A? They just posted the first part, and I haven't posted anything yet. Should I ask first, or should I just go ahead and jump in?)

EDIT: "They have a fanfiction site for couples on TV shows! Look at this! Mulder and Scully!" help me i love her what do i do
loquaciousquark: ((dragon age) aveline hug it out man)
25th-Mar-2012 08:57 pm - oh gosh
Oh my goodness, oh my goodness, my roommate just googled "romance fan fiction" for the first time after a discussion of the kmeme fill I'm working on. WHAT HAVE I DONE WHAT HAVE I UNLEASHED

(I already asked Hikki this, but I wanted to get y'all's opinions too: what's the etiquette on posting fills concurrently with another A!A? They just posted the first part, and I haven't posted anything yet. Should I ask first, or should I just go ahead and jump in?)

EDIT: "They have a fanfiction site for couples on TV shows! Look at this! Mulder and Scully!" help me i love her what do i do
loquaciousquark: ((dragon age) aveline hug it out man)
23rd-Mar-2012 02:08 am
Does anybody know if it's canon that the Tranquil see only in black and white? Or is that fanon? The wiki doesn't say, and I can't remember if I saw it in-game or read it in a fanfic.
loquaciousquark: ((dragon age) isabela is v. concerned)
23rd-Mar-2012 02:08 am
Does anybody know if it's canon that the Tranquil see only in black and white? Or is that fanon? The wiki doesn't say, and I can't remember if I saw it in-game or read it in a fanfic.
loquaciousquark: ((dragon age) isabela is v. concerned)
AAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHA I BROKE 50K WORDS IN THE TEVINTER FIC. It may have taken me four months but whatever take THAT NANOWRIMO, YOU AND YOUR 3200 WORDS A DAY OR WHATEVER. What's still really daunting, though, is that although I knew it was going to be long, I didn't really know it was going to be this long. I just finished chapter five out of 9/10, depending on how the last chapter goes, and it's right at 51k words as if to mock me and my inability to write quickly.

What's wild to me though is that Deathsong, my IchiRuki fic (and for now the longest thing I've ever written), is only 53,499 words total, and that fic had twelve chapters. Admittedly, my style's changed a bit since then--as well as how I actually physically write these things--but still. That seems like a gigantic discrepancy to me.

(Have I mentioned this fic before here? I don't think I have. It's basically your standard magister/slave Tevinter AU with a twist: when Danarius dies in Act III, Hawke inherits his estate & all his slaves--including Fenris. Plot macguffin means she has to go to Minrathous to take care of it in person; Fenris goes along, naturally, and hijinks ensue. It's so dramariffic but WHATEVER, I LOVE IT. I'd love more to be finished with it, but hey, let's not get greedy.)


In other news, not a whole lot has changed since my last post job-wise (still looking, still being not hired). The school has been infuriatingly unhelpful considering their promises and I'm pretty sure the academic advisory office is completely ignoring me at this point. One of the staff members there was originally very generous, telling me to call him anytime and he'd be happy to help and oh, there are so many private practices affiliated with the school that we can get you a job with--PAH. I've called him four times and emailed him twice in the last week and haven't heard so much as a PEEP. I'm basically on my own.

The only saving grace in this scenario is that my parents have offered their financial support if I still don't have a job by the time my savings run dry. Hooray, cocktail of gratitude and horrible guilt. I thought at this point I'd be a little more financially independent, to be honest.

ANYWAY. There's not really a point to this, I guess, but I wanted to drop in and say hello and...I don't know I JUST MISS Y'ALL, OKAY.


Edit: OH AND THESE THINGS. THEY ARE ADDICTING.



loquaciousquark: ((leverage) this is parker's pouty face)
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