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17th-Dec-2011 11:32 pm - I live. Kind of.
Oh, you guys, you guys. You all are just--the most amazing people, and I love you so much. I can't thank you enough for that wonderful post y'all left me and as soon as I can, I'm going to go through and comment properly but first, I wanted to let you know why I haven't been around much lately.

For those of y'all who are newer and might not know (welcome, by the way! I promise I am not usually this...dolorous), I'm a second year in optometry school. This past semester I had a class called Ocular Pharmacology, and it was, without hyperbole, the most difficult class I have ever taken. And the long and short of it is--I failed the class.

I didn't mean to go so long without posting either, honestly--it just ended up that that class pretty much took over my life, and every time I sat down to type anything it always came out "I'm really worried about this one class" and it just never seemed worth detailing how hard it was (really freakin hard) until I had a final grade. Which, as I mentioned before, ended up being an F. The worst part is that I actually passed the final! I just did so badly on the midterm and two of her Quests ("not a quiz, not a test--quest!" urgh) that it was unrecoverable.

And it's just...really, really frustrating. I went to study groups; I went to the extra sessions she offered at 7:00 in the morning; I emailed her multiple times for meetings and every time there was some reason she couldn't meet. And in the end, I still failed the damn class.

Basically, what this means that I'm going to have to repeat second year. Not all of it, thank God, but I'm required to pass pharm before advancing to year three, and it's not offered again until next August. So I have to sit on my heels until then, and at that point I'll drop back and join the class of 2015.

HOWEVER. I have been doing my level best to find bright sides to this situation since I found out about it Tuesday morning. What I've come up with so far is:
  • I get to be in class with my friend Rachel again
  • I have been feeling pretty burnt out lately, and maybe this break will give me a chance to get my head back into the whole school mindset
  • maybe the failing grade will inspire me to do better in my other classes
  • I'm still not as bad as another girl I know who's failed out of two years and is now with the class of 2015 instead of 2013

those--those are legit goals, right

Anyway, I'm better now than I've been this week, but that's because aside from all this pharm stuff, this week has been one of the worst of my life. Not only was it finals week, which always carries its own stress, here are the other things that have happened:

had to make up two failing portions of my final practical, nearly failed the CEVS final, found out I failed one of the makeup portions of my practical and therefore had to make it up again, burst into tears during the makeup makeup because I'd just found out about pharm and the professor grading me asked how my other classes were going, had to tell two of my closest friends in the class that I wouldn't be coming back to join them in the spring, got pulled over for speeding after a study group the night before my last practical (65 in a 40, 1:00 in the morning, nobody was around and I'd nearly missed my turn onto my street because they turn off the stoplights at night and I wasn't used to the blinking yellow even though I've lived here for over a year), and the next day, got stuck behind an accident on my way home from school and took almost an hour to go a little over two miles.

It...look, it has just not been a good week.

THAT SAID, here are some good things that I am trying to focus on!
  • the officer who pulled me over was kind enough to let me go with only a warning, although that might have been due in part to the utterly uncontrollable tears I burst into when he came back with my license and insurance card;
  • my roommate and I are hosting a legit Christmas dinner party tomorrow for nine people, and even though I have no idea where we're going to put everyone we've got a ham in the fridge and a crockpot full of hot chocolate, and if you've got those things I figure it can't go too badly;
  • my shopping is done and the presents are all wrapped and under the tree, and my roommate and I are going to sit down and watch It's A Wonderful Life together here as soon as I post this;
  • there's a puppy sitting on my feet and I'm healthy, warm, and surrounded by people who love me.


Yeah, this sucks. But life could be a whole lot worse.
loquaciousquark: ((misc) belle gaston face swap snow)
17th-Dec-2011 11:32 pm - I live. Kind of.
Oh, you guys, you guys. You all are just--the most amazing people, and I love you so much. I can't thank you enough for that wonderful post y'all left me and as soon as I can, I'm going to go through and comment properly but first, I wanted to let you know why I haven't been around much lately.

For those of y'all who are newer and might not know (welcome, by the way! I promise I am not usually this...dolorous), I'm a second year in optometry school. This past semester I had a class called Ocular Pharmacology, and it was, without hyperbole, the most difficult class I have ever taken. And the long and short of it is--I failed the class.

I didn't mean to go so long without posting either, honestly--it just ended up that that class pretty much took over my life, and every time I sat down to type anything it always came out "I'm really worried about this one class" and it just never seemed worth detailing how hard it was (really freakin hard) until I had a final grade. Which, as I mentioned before, ended up being an F. The worst part is that I actually passed the final! I just did so badly on the midterm and two of her Quests ("not a quiz, not a test--quest!" urgh) that it was unrecoverable.

And it's just...really, really frustrating. I went to study groups; I went to the extra sessions she offered at 7:00 in the morning; I emailed her multiple times for meetings and every time there was some reason she couldn't meet. And in the end, I still failed the damn class.

Basically, what this means that I'm going to have to repeat second year. Not all of it, thank God, but I'm required to pass pharm before advancing to year three, and it's not offered again until next August. So I have to sit on my heels until then, and at that point I'll drop back and join the class of 2015.

HOWEVER. I have been doing my level best to find bright sides to this situation since I found out about it Tuesday morning. What I've come up with so far is:
  • I get to be in class with my friend Rachel again
  • I have been feeling pretty burnt out lately, and maybe this break will give me a chance to get my head back into the whole school mindset
  • maybe the failing grade will inspire me to do better in my other classes
  • I'm still not as bad as another girl I know who's failed out of two years and is now with the class of 2015 instead of 2013

those--those are legit goals, right

Anyway, I'm better now than I've been this week, but that's because aside from all this pharm stuff, this week has been one of the worst of my life. Not only was it finals week, which always carries its own stress, here are the other things that have happened:

had to make up two failing portions of my final practical, nearly failed the CEVS final, found out I failed one of the makeup portions of my practical and therefore had to make it up again, burst into tears during the makeup makeup because I'd just found out about pharm and the professor grading me asked how my other classes were going, had to tell two of my closest friends in the class that I wouldn't be coming back to join them in the spring, got pulled over for speeding after a study group the night before my last practical (65 in a 40, 1:00 in the morning, nobody was around and I'd nearly missed my turn onto my street because they turn off the stoplights at night and I wasn't used to the blinking yellow even though I've lived here for over a year), and the next day, got stuck behind an accident on my way home from school and took almost an hour to go a little over two miles.

It...look, it has just not been a good week.

THAT SAID, here are some good things that I am trying to focus on!
  • the officer who pulled me over was kind enough to let me go with only a warning, although that might have been due in part to the utterly uncontrollable tears I burst into when he came back with my license and insurance card;
  • my roommate and I are hosting a legit Christmas dinner party tomorrow for nine people, and even though I have no idea where we're going to put everyone we've got a ham in the fridge and a crockpot full of hot chocolate, and if you've got those things I figure it can't go too badly;
  • my shopping is done and the presents are all wrapped and under the tree, and my roommate and I are going to sit down and watch It's A Wonderful Life together here as soon as I post this;
  • there's a puppy sitting on my feet and I'm healthy, warm, and surrounded by people who love me.


Yeah, this sucks. But life could be a whole lot worse.
loquaciousquark: ((misc) belle gaston face swap snow)
JADE IS HERE OMG

here is what she is doing right now



THINGS THAT SEEM GOOD SO FAR: adoration of carver and merrill seems equal to my own
THINGS THAT SEEM UNFORTUNATE SO FAR: immediate fenris lust does not seem to have yet appeared. woe, tragedy

p.s. jade ate all of those chips and those chocolate things, i didn't have any of them no sirree, and we certainly didn't go through that entire bag in less than an hour while recruiting anders and fenris and merrill, no sirree

/cough.

ANYWAY thank you all for the anime recs from my last post! I ended up suggesting Sailor Moon and some Miyazaki (specifically Ponyo, Howl's Moving Castle, and tentatively Totoro). I think the girl's mother will be okay with those, but I guess we'll see after she's watched them, ha.

DANARIUS'S MANOR NEARLY PURGED! achievement unlocked: nine hour da2 marathon! oh, addictions, why can't we quit you. (And while I'm thinking of it, I do apologize for the incoherence of this post. I am extremely hungry and it was a long day at school. Also, I'm watching her play through all these these quests relatively unspoiled and it is just FASCINATING. Plus, you know. Fenris.)

man i have so many things to tell you guys, but i just can't seem to find the stupid spare time to sit down and make a proper post. ONE DAY. ONE DAY.

Dinnertime! :D
loquaciousquark: ((dragon age) aveline stars in COPS)
JADE IS HERE OMG

here is what she is doing right now



THINGS THAT SEEM GOOD SO FAR: adoration of carver and merrill seems equal to my own
THINGS THAT SEEM UNFORTUNATE SO FAR: immediate fenris lust does not seem to have yet appeared. woe, tragedy

p.s. jade ate all of those chips and those chocolate things, i didn't have any of them no sirree, and we certainly didn't go through that entire bag in less than an hour while recruiting anders and fenris and merrill, no sirree

/cough.

ANYWAY thank you all for the anime recs from my last post! I ended up suggesting Sailor Moon and some Miyazaki (specifically Ponyo, Howl's Moving Castle, and tentatively Totoro). I think the girl's mother will be okay with those, but I guess we'll see after she's watched them, ha.

DANARIUS'S MANOR NEARLY PURGED! achievement unlocked: nine hour da2 marathon! oh, addictions, why can't we quit you. (And while I'm thinking of it, I do apologize for the incoherence of this post. I am extremely hungry and it was a long day at school. Also, I'm watching her play through all these these quests relatively unspoiled and it is just FASCINATING. Plus, you know. Fenris.)

man i have so many things to tell you guys, but i just can't seem to find the stupid spare time to sit down and make a proper post. ONE DAY. ONE DAY.

Dinnertime! :D
loquaciousquark: ((dragon age) aveline stars in COPS)
19th-Jul-2011 09:53 pm - sniff. i'm so proud.
FLIST. I COME TO YOU WITH A REQUEST.

There's a young girl at my church who is apparently beginning to show signs of interest in anime and Japanese culture in general, and my mother has come to me asking for age-appropriate recommendations, and frankly, I got stuck after Princess Tutu and Sailor Moon. (Somehow I feel like Bleach might be a little. Um. Dismember-y?)

SO: DO YOU HAVE ANY RECOMMENDATIONS FOR A GIRL:
  • who is eleven years old
  • who goes to my Baptist church in Alabama
  • who likely has little real exposure to the terribly debauched world of manga and anime
  • whose mother I will see frequently in the future and will probably vet these first


I have no idea if she will watch subs or if she even knows the difference between subs n' dubs. I say recommend whatever, and I'll just make sure my mom knows which ones are available/preferred in subs or dubs, so at least she'll have a choice.

PLEASE. NO. TENTACLES.
loquaciousquark: ((misc) H it is for holy crap)
19th-Jul-2011 09:53 pm - sniff. i'm so proud.
FLIST. I COME TO YOU WITH A REQUEST.

There's a young girl at my church who is apparently beginning to show signs of interest in anime and Japanese culture in general, and my mother has come to me asking for age-appropriate recommendations, and frankly, I got stuck after Princess Tutu and Sailor Moon. (Somehow I feel like Bleach might be a little. Um. Dismember-y?)

SO: DO YOU HAVE ANY RECOMMENDATIONS FOR A GIRL:
  • who is eleven years old
  • who goes to my Baptist church in Alabama
  • who likely has little real exposure to the terribly debauched world of manga and anime
  • whose mother I will see frequently in the future and will probably vet these first


I have no idea if she will watch subs or if she even knows the difference between subs n' dubs. I say recommend whatever, and I'll just make sure my mom knows which ones are available/preferred in subs or dubs, so at least she'll have a choice.

PLEASE. NO. TENTACLES.
loquaciousquark: ((misc) H it is for holy crap)
It was just supposed to be a one-off cute Bleach Ichigo/Rukia/Hollow picture. Now it's knee-deep in Roommate!AU and Jade's picking out wallpapers for their house AND I HAVEN'T EVEN FINISHED THE ORIGINAL IMAGE YET.

It's like a joke! 'Ichigo, Hollow, and Rukia move into a house.' )


And then they make prank calls. )
loquaciousquark: ((bleach) rukia CHEW your FOOD)
It was just supposed to be a one-off cute Bleach Ichigo/Rukia/Hollow picture. Now it's knee-deep in Roommate!AU and Jade's picking out wallpapers for their house AND I HAVEN'T EVEN FINISHED THE ORIGINAL IMAGE YET.

It's like a joke! 'Ichigo, Hollow, and Rukia move into a house.' )


And then they make prank calls. )
loquaciousquark: ((bleach) rukia CHEW your FOOD)
GOIN' HOME THIS WEEKEND aw yiss.

The optometric equipment we ordered is being delivered this week. I took possession of my BIO yesterday (think very expensive miner's hard hat with the light on the front) and I'm picking up my case of lenses and VA charts and direct ophthalmoscope stuff this afternoon.

and man ALIVE this stuff is dadgum expensive! The BIO by itself was $1864.50, and the other stuff I ordered like the lenses and the schematic eye and the sphygmamamometer (say THAT three times fast) ended up totaling $3896.42. Add that to the school loans I've already amassed LIKE A BOSS and basically I am going to be in debt for infinity and beyond.

Still. Pretty cool that we're getting this stuff all official-like. Pictures'll be forthcoming later when I get my hot little hands on a camera to take 'em with.

Entertaining moment of the day: one of groups presenting today did their presentation on Fabry's disease which affects the kidneys, and one of the girls made a stuffed kidney out of felt with a googly-eyed face that they tossed around the class, and whoever caught it had to answer a trivia question on the presentation. Hoo doggies, felt kidney hot potato! :D
loquaciousquark: ((misc) eyes! eyes everywhere!)
GOIN' HOME THIS WEEKEND aw yiss.

The optometric equipment we ordered is being delivered this week. I took possession of my BIO yesterday (think very expensive miner's hard hat with the light on the front) and I'm picking up my case of lenses and VA charts and direct ophthalmoscope stuff this afternoon.

and man ALIVE this stuff is dadgum expensive! The BIO by itself was $1864.50, and the other stuff I ordered like the lenses and the schematic eye and the sphygmamamometer (say THAT three times fast) ended up totaling $3896.42. Add that to the school loans I've already amassed LIKE A BOSS and basically I am going to be in debt for infinity and beyond.

Still. Pretty cool that we're getting this stuff all official-like. Pictures'll be forthcoming later when I get my hot little hands on a camera to take 'em with.

Entertaining moment of the day: one of groups presenting today did their presentation on Fabry's disease which affects the kidneys, and one of the girls made a stuffed kidney out of felt with a googly-eyed face that they tossed around the class, and whoever caught it had to answer a trivia question on the presentation. Hoo doggies, felt kidney hot potato! :D
loquaciousquark: ((misc) eyes! eyes everywhere!)
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